Momma Gets Overwhelmed
I realize I am overwhelmed when I start walking in circles. Not literally but almost and it definitely feels like I am walking in circles. I put clothes away from the washing machine and tell my daughter we will go on a walk in 30 minutes. “But momma, why don’t we just go now and you do that in 30 minutes?” She has a great point and I agree. The kids grab their bikes and helmets and I put our excitable dog on a leash who btw is already moving her lower body at 60 mph in anticipation of the walk.
As we walk to our neighborhood park the fresh air instantly brings me down a couple notches. I observe another mom and her 5 (f*i*v*e) children walking to the park. The smallest two are twins maybe two or three years old. They say “mommy” “mommy” “mommy” “mommy” either simultaneously or trailing each other. I look at the beautiful woman’s face. I can tell she needed the fresh air as well. Her face tells me she was walking in circles too. Maybe this is what I want to see. Maybe I need solidarity and company. Maybe, but it doesn’t matter seeing this mommy and her five kids is sobering.
Once at our park I let the kids take their bikes around the walking loop and it’s just the excitable dog and me. I take a deep breath and ask myself why I am feeling overwhelmed. Then I take a step back and acknowledge I am feeling overwhelmed “I am feeling overwhelmed.” The acknowledgement itself gives room to think more clearly. I contemplate what will make me feel less overwhelmed other than a seven hour nap (escaping) or a box of cookies (escaping). I decide that other than escaping it would be nice to get ahead of the game for the business will ensue Wednesday. Wednesday will be the end of summer.
We get home happy from our walk and hungry for dinner. I wash grapes then put chicken nuggets and vegetables in the oven. Keeping dinner simple allows me to focus on the task at hand. After dinner I take the kids upstairs to create outfits. This is an easyish task because all our laundry is done (hallelujah!! and for more on this check out my post “Oh the laundry, part 1).
We make as many outfits as we can for each one of them and I hang the premade outfits in their closet just ready to grab and go. One less thing to worry about. Next I go through all my totes and purses and clean them out. One less thing to worry about. We make their overnight bags for when they visit dad this coming weekend. One less thing to worry about. I text their dad he is now responsible for keeping their clothes at home, no more packing overnight bags. One less thing to worry about. I put all the books I am going to read and need in a neat stack near my desk. One less thing to worry about. We put all the kids supplies in their new backpacks. One less thing to worry about. We grab a snack and watch Johnny English Reborn. This movie makes me worry with the characters terrible mistakes, I can handle that for a bit.
The thing is mommies get overwhelmed and its normal there is so much going on and so much we want to do it can be overwhelming. The important lesson I learned today is that I can always take a walk, acknowledge what I am feeling and then do what I can to help my future self out. She will thank me and my present self gets to worry less. It’s a win win situation. And to that momma at the park with the five kids, I hope her evening turned around too.
All the love,